Inner Healing is greater than Outward Success - by Charlie Collier

Success in my opinion was defined by the size of church, charisma in leadership, and the
number of years in ministry. I’m not sure if that'll alone make one feel good at the end of their
career, but it was something I was trying to reach.

In that trying, the Holy Spirit did a deep work in my life. Four years ago, I had a breakdown. It’s
wasn’t one of those breakdowns in which I was working so hard for Jesus that I just wore myself out. I had a breakdown for many reasons – Genetics, family history, and years of OCD and anxiety. It all came to a head one night and I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t stop walking and felt
totally worthless…and it continued for a long time.

It is said that God’s office is at the end of your rope. Well in that pit, I met the crucified Christ.
Now, it wasn’t like this “one time” experience, and I was good to go. I have heard about those
but that wasn’t my experience. Through medication, counseling, and family support, the Holy
Spirit has done, and continues to do a healing work in my life.

The reliable mark of the Holy Spirit at work in your life is not so much divine peace, but birth
pangs. – Christopher Blumheart